while writing the birthday letter to junhua last night,i suddenly recalled memories i had with all my closest [kors].


of cos,starting off with jingwen..the first kor i had.


i remember very clearly,almost every single thing we went throught..


firstly,how we met.haha..we got to know each other at the end of year chalet in 2003..sad huh?we were about to graduate then..but oh wells.we still became kor and mei didn't we?haha.


after the chalet,we contacted thru sms..at that time,we both weren't -available-,if u get wad i mean.but we didn't have any liking for each other so yeah..


gradually,when he became SBU,of cos,he was sad..and started talking to me.after days,he asked if i could be his mei..and i of course,agreed.


we smsed,smsed and smsed till sec2..


in sec1,we were ultra close.jingwen,herman and me.herman's my best friend then u see..so,yeah.whenever one of us returned to lps,there'll always be the other two around..yup.


though we were in different sec sch,we kept alot in contact..jingwen,in sms..herman,online..


they even went for my 1/5 chalet!which was ultra fun..but i guess,it doesn't last long.


me and herman started to fall out..quarrelled..stop talking to each other completely.being the really really childish person i was,i didn't care about apologising or anything,cos i thought that,it was his fault that i started the argument..


yup.me and jingwen..we smsed alot.met up for movies,took neoprints for the first,and most probably the last time.went to parties together..i remember,he walked me home from cheryl's hse after her birthday party in sec1..i was ultra touched!seemed like he was just afraid,i wun be safe or sth..


kor,remember after the robots movie with wenna and wenbin,we took the mrt home together..and before i got off,u asked me to sms u when i was home..doubt u'll ever read this anyway.haha..


at midnight,u were the first to wish me happy birthday..and as my present,u bought a tigger pillow for me..and smsed me at 11plus,to be the last to wish me happy birthday..


we continued smsing alot alot..i was so naive,thinking our kor-mei relationship would last forever u noe?..i thought u thought the same way too..especially when u promised not keep anything from me,and vice versa..but i guess,u proved me wrong.


cos of -another-,our relationship turned for the worse..den u stopped smsing me.and now,we are like total strangers..if i asked u about ur promise,u would just say,cos i didn't ask u..den leave me speechless.


den there's herman.been friends since p1..haha..nth much to say actually..or rather,dun wanna talk abt it?haha..no idea.*shrugs*


marcus..yup.ultra close too.


in sec1,2 and startin of sec3 that is..went here and there together..really close.be it mentally,physically[dun think dirty],or whatever.


guess u met new friends..we just dun talk as often as we did last time..but when we start talkin,its like last time..haha..


gosh.i just miss loads of them..


glad i haven't lost any of my girl friends yet.(:


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telling myself to forget u,
and fall for some1 new..
but i just cant help u,
seeing u makes my eyes lit.

do u already know,
or just tryin to keep ur profile from me low?
u're the person i terribly miss,
but definitely not the one i care about least.

why cant i get u off my mind?
ppl are telling me im wasting my time.
perhaps u just don't feel the same,
or treat this friendship as a game..



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wldn't it be great if i could really read minds?den i'd know what -he's- thinking.


hai..=/

-普通朋友-

等待
我随时随地在等待
做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
我愿意改变(what can i do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手
但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
so i
我不能只是be your friend
i just can't be your friend
no,no,no,
我不能只是做你的朋友
不能只是做普通朋友


describes u?describes me too.